Say What You Need To Say
You know those things where you write out # of things about people without naming names. I did it forever ago, and I’d like to do it again. I wonder if I still have the old one… either way here’s the latest version.
1. I just have one question for you. Why do you suddenly think you’re too good for us? You went to college and all of a sudden you don’t have any time in your day to talk to me? I was there for you through everything. I was your shrink when you started cutting again and I was your cheerleader who taught you how to sext. How come that means nothing to you now?
2. You’ve been my best friend and sometimes we aren’t always the best about keeping in touch but we always pick up where we left off. I’m glad that we’ve managed to get through so much. I hope you know that I’ll always have your back no matter what. You really are the best friend I’ve ever had. I really do mean that.
3. You’re my sister and we barely talk, which is weird. We’ve always been so close but with you in grad school and me in undergrad it seems like our schedules never match up anymore. I feel left out of your life. I know it’s only a phase and soon enough we’ll be back where we’re supposed to be. I just miss you is all.
4. We haven’t talked in at least a year. You just suddenly decided to hate me, and I was so offended by your betrayal that I didn’t even want to fix things. I still kind of don’t want to, yet at the same time I am sort of tempted to extend an olive branch. I never even did anything to you though, and I don’t want to seem weak by giving in now.
5. You loved me and I broke your heart. I didn’t know what I was doing then, and I’m sorry that you got caught in the middle of it. You never did anything to deserve that. It took me far too long to try and smooth things over. I didn’t admitting to being such a bitch, so ignoring it was easier of course. I hope you’re happy with your current girlfriend, I really do. But I’m not going to lie - it is a little creepy that we look alike :x
6. Our friendship ended mainly because I stood up and told you what everyone else in our group was thinking - your boyfriend was a piece of trash. I to this day do not regret telling you that I thought you were wasting your time and belittling yourself by dating him. You’ve since broken up with him, which I’m thankful for. I wonder if you ever think about what I told you and feel bad for ending our friendship over it. You should.
7. I still can’t believe you’re gone. Your birthday is in a couple days; you would have been turning 20. I still don’t think it’s fair that you were sick and died so young. I’ve learned so much from you, more than any other person. You were my first real boyfriend and my first close death. I will never forget you and I will never cease to be grateful. I hope you’re doing well up there. You deserve only the best.
8. I wish we were still friends. I feel like we’d have a lot in common with our boyfriends being in the Navy. I saw on Facebook you had wrote on someone’s wall about keeping a journal that you’d write in each day while he’s away. I think that’s absolutely precious, and I wish I could tell you that.
9. I’m really glad that we ended up at the same university and on the same floor. I’m so excited to be rooming with you this year. It’ll be lots of fun and I can’t wait. I really hope we’ll always be friends.
10. Last, but not least. I love you more than I have ever loved anything. It scares me, excites me, and surprises me. I keep falling more in love with you and I hope I never stop. It’s been a tough road for us that won’t get any smoother, but baby I’m there right beside you. I’ll wait for you to come home, I’ll write to you while you’re away, and I’ll always be proud of you. I hope you know that I’m here to stay. Through it all. I love you.
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